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I'm not sure really why I decided to start writing in this.  I even told someone close to me that the whole blog and online myspace/facebook blog ects, are just too much its like an an open gateway into a person's life or an unlocked diary if you will, free for anyone anywhere to view.  Yes it is their choice to post the things they do, so I suppose its up to them to face both the negative and positive consequences of their actions...

So heres my life right....(to contradict my previous statement)

For the reasons stated above I chose to no longer right in this so called blog although I do thorougly enjoy to write and read back my previous entries.  That being said, I wish that life could be like the movie the Butterfly Effect.  For those of who you who are unfamiliar with the movie, a character by the name of Evan (played by Ashton Kutcher) has blackouts as a child and has to write down his last thoughts leading up to the point where he would black out.  When he became older he came across these journals he wrote in as a kid and figured out by reading each entry he could transport himself back into the past and actually have the ability to change anything in that moment which would then change the present.  So in my life I wish I could read previous entries of this blog one in particular and change the way things went down with it.  I mean I was young(er) and stupid(er) and knowing what I know now I definately would have changed things.  And I deeply regret ever hurting the one girl who ever really meant anything to me in my life.  Since that time and now it gave us both a chance to meet a lot of other people and I realized that no other girl even compares to her and what she has to offer someone.  She was also the only one that was always there for me and believed in me when it came to music and writing.  I guess this isn't a movie though and I can't change the past but I can change the future starting in the present.  My only fear is that its too late and maybe she'll never trust me again with her heart or that shes found someone else that makes her life complete.  This is only the outline of things theres so much more that I gotta get off my mind about everything with her and actually tell her.

As far as everything else right now I'm still doin the band thing and gettin ready to start playing for the musical ISU entitled Tommy.  I've also been working on my solo career writing a lot and gettin together with one of my buddies to work on recording my own cd with originals and covers.  So yeah I'm really looking forward to that.

Welp thats all that I have to say for now

You ain't know????  I GOTTA GO!

-Oh and so I realize why people enjoy writing in this sorta thing because its a way of getting things off your mind even if no one even chooses to read them other than themselves

So I decided to write to you all since I haven't' done so in so long.  I can't believe its been like 3 years since I first started this thing....crazzzzay.  Right now I'm going to school at Heartland for my 2nd to last semester (I'll finish up after taking 2 summer classes).  So far so good, I was late for my first class which turned out good cuz there were only a few spaces left and I managed to mangle a seat next to a pretty nice lookin gal. 

Right now I can barely talk, my throat hurts like a biiiitch.  Now that I work for UPS it doesn't help any that I'm working in the freezing cold everday!!!  Oh and UPS, its a good job I like it sooo much better than any past jobs, no customer service person to person bull shit, just an honest days pay for an honest days work.

Welp I've been kind of hanging out with different people now, not soo many from high school anymore.  I mean there are those few that I have still kept in contact with but not as much as I used to.  This weekend I went to a party at Vernon Stables...it was a good time.

Welp always remember to git r done

~Ron

So yeah I think I'm pretty giving up drinking smoking, chewing, and anything else that is ever bad for me..I'm gettin tired of living this false reality giving into these things because I don't even know where my life is going and where I'm gonna end up. .I'm getting tired of some of the people around here I feel like its high school shit all over again.  I'm not the type of person to jibber jabber on about all this so called "drama" in my life but one incident this past week totally just threw me over the edge.  It seems like its true the small things in life really can lead to big ones.  I mean I can take a joke as much as the next person, however with my health problems in the past this one was taken too far...

Welp sitting here finishing up my homosexuality paper for Human SEXuality...good stuff I reccommend the class to anyone and everyone (especially if you go to Heartland because the teacher is FRICKIN' HOTT)  Thought I'd rustle some feathers with a lil writing in the ole xanga.  Not much going on here except for having the most KICK ASS halloween costume EVER!!! Well its probably not the BEST ONE EVER but I think it'll pretty much rock your socks off!!!  I'm goin as David Starsky STOP LAPD!!!  DO IT DO IT!!!! For those of you who arent familiar with what I am talking about, this is a character from the a 70s show entitled Starsky and Hutch which was later made into the movie with Ben Stiller and Owen Wilson.  And NO I don't have anyone going as Hutch is the first thing people ask, I doubt anyone would want to dress up as hutch with me beacuse it basically wouldn't take much.  For Starsky I've got the perm/mini afro wig, 70s glasses from house of funk, tight 70s looking jeans, a gun with shoulder gun holster, along with my leather jacket.  I already tried on the wig and glasses and it looks pretty sweet!!!!

Hmmm just a lotta parties going on in general I've been walking to all the parties from my house and back.  I've got lost at least one time already.  On friday morning one of my friends brought me home from the party and hes like dude you walked ALL THIS WAY...I said yeah and I walked all the way there and all the way back last weekend.  What can I say walking is good for you, and the day I got lost I happen to cross paths with a guy about my age who just happened to live on my street...its turns out I was soo drunk I was going the wrong way!!!

Welp thats enough now let me know whether or not any of you have in incite on any of this or just the fact that I ACTUALLY started writing in this again...

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So heres a lil dealio y'all can fill out if you'd like (cuz I don't really feel like posting an entry) if not thats cool too!!!

1.) I _______ Ron.

2.) Ron is _______.

3.) Ron needs _______.

4.) I want to _______ Ron.

5.) Ron can _______.

6.) Someday Ron will _______.

7.) Ron reminds me of _______.

8.) Without Ron_______.

9.) Ron, be _______.

10.) Ron always _______.

11.) The worst thing about Ron is __.

12) The best thing about Ron is_____.

13.) I think Ron should ______.

14.) Right now, I bet Ron is thinking about_____.

15.) Ron makes me want to ____.

16.) Ron is sweet like____.

17.) If I could spend the day with Ron, I would____.

18.) I'd ____ for Ron.

19.) Ron is my _____.

20.) If I could be Ron for a day, I would____.

21.) I want to give Ron a(n) ______.

22.) The song _____ by ______ reminds me of Ron.

23.) If I was alone with Ron in a room, I would ____.

24.) Ron will marry___ and have ___ kids.

25.) My favorite memory/memories with Ron is/are ______.